Two days ago my daughter and I returned to Ohio from Disney World!!! Yup, you read that right! Spring Break in Florida! My parents bought a time share down there a year ago and for Christmas and birthdays gave my brother and his family as well as my daughter and I tickets for things. That included plane fair and a 3 day park hopper pass to Disney. One of the things I’ve wanted to do for a long time – and wanted to do once in my lifetime – was to go to a Cirque du Soleil. There just so happens to be a tent in Downtown Disney and my parents got my daughter and I some great tickets! We were third row from the stage! I highly recommend that show to everyone at least once in your life. It is lots of money to go but it is well spent.

Now I must tell you – I have a flying phobia. So bad is it that two xanax did not calm me from the terror of take-offs. My dad had to fly up from Florida just to fly us down. I did much better at landings and only because I knew we were almost there and I had gained some trust in the plane by then. The take offs were pure hell. I was shaking, crying and hyperventilating as I climbed up my Dad’s arm in fear. My poor daughter was trying so hard to calm me. The flight attendant on the trip there felt so bad for my daughter for having to take care of me that she gave her some free snacks. Unfortunately, they contained nuts I’m allergic to so she coudn’t open and eat them.

The weather was in the low 70’s most days but the kids still managed to swim a few of those days. We picked up a tan which was great because I have been so incredibly pale from being so sick. Now when I break out in facial and neck rashes several times a day it looks more like a sun burn : )

While there we visited Magic Kingdom, Epcot and Animal Kingdom. We heard the double sonic boom of the space shuttle landing and my parents said they saw the shuttle from where they were at the time (we were at one of the parks.) It was great to see my family together and especially over Easter. The kids had fun hunting for eggs in the villa rooms. We played putt putt and I saw some friends from high school with their kids (one just born in December I hadn’t met yet.)

I didn’t take my watch on the trip so I could enjoy a week of not having to constantly look at a clock. That’s how I am at home. I have to fit so much into a small period of time I’m always clock watching to see how much time I have to do a task or to see when the next one has to be done. I’m dreading going back to “real life” tomorrow. Today is a transitional day as I have to go to the grocery and fill the fridge with something other than eggs and milk I quickly picked up Friday night when we got home. I need to open my daughters back pack to see what lies ahead. The alarm is going to be going off awfully early tomorrow ; )

Gosh it’s been a long time since I’ve been on here. Let’s see. So, an old aquantance or friend or whatever you want to call him as he was a co-worker of my ex-husbands and a friend of ours that way…anyway…he was killed today. He was walking from his house to the college where we was taking classes when a 19 year old hit him and killed him. He was only 41 years old. My ex called me on my commute home and asked if I had heard about the accident. I said I had and asked if I knew who it was. He said I did. When he told me I was just sick. My ex had just seen him a few weeks ago at the Brownies Father Daughter dance. He was doing so well having had such a crappy life. He left behind four kids.

My daughter and I are leaving soon to go visit Mickey Mouse. I am so desperately in need of this vacation as is my daughter. However, I’m really worried that my body isn’t going to be able to handle it. I had a bit of a relapse this week which has been really discouraging. I spent 1/2 my birthday in bed on Wednesday. I don’t even recognize myself in the mirror I’ve lost so much weight. 43 lbs last I weighed myself. We are supposed to be meeting up with my parents and my brother and his family. The plan is to go to Mickey’s theme parks for three days. I hope I can physically do that. I want to do it for my daughter. She has been through so much and deserves this as much, if not more, than I do.

My best friend is due to give birth any time with her second child. If she doesn’t have him in the next week she will have a csection next Thursday. So exciting!

I realized we totally forgot travel soccer footskills tonight when I checked the calendar to make sure I did everything today. That’s the first one we’ve missed. We had a legit excuse – she had an arts festival at school she was singing in. We saw the coach there and he made a comment to me when we walked by as though he was confessing to something. Now I know what it was! I’ll bet he wasn’t there either! He probably had the other team’s coach there. Oh well.

That’s about it here on the homefront! Wish me luck flying to Mickey land and back as I have a major phobia of flying. I hope my body can withstand the stress I’m about to endure. I’ve been given some anti anxiety meds to help. Let’s hope they work!