Hello. Sorry I haven’t written in…well..forever. I’ve been quite depressed the last few months. Of course winter/dark evenings, etc doesn’t help that but so much has happened that has been ugly that I just didn’t want to write more depressing things. I suppose it would have been and still could be good therapy for me. There has been a lot of sickness in my house and I just yesterday morning at 7:00 a.m. by a phone call of my doctor found out what I had that put me in the hospital in November. The big mystery was solved. Only it turns out if the hospital and covering doctor would have given the lab results to my primary doctor we would have known that week I was discharged. I had a blood test done the day I was discharged and the results were lost in translation. If it weren’t for a specialist I saw this week having asked the hospital directly for all my lab results I may never have known. I have chronic Epstein Barr. The normal range is 0 – 99 and mine was very close to 3,000. So, I had it BAD she said.

Work has been hell. My boss has been all up in my grill. My two closest friends submitted their resignation this week because they were so miserable. Work has added secretarial crap to my heavy tech work load which just irritates the crap out of me every day because I do it every day. I was told I should’t take breaks (my 15 minutes in the morning and 15 in the afternoon even though I’m eligable for them). I was also told I need to work weekends. I’m salary.

Strep throat went through the house. They put me on the wrong antibiotics. Turns out 6 days later the culture came back showing that it was resistant to amoxicillin that I was taking. I felt like hell. My daughter got it too and thankfully they called in antibiotics that worked for her.

My daughter has been having motivational issues at school. The guadance counselor and teacher recommended her for a class during lunch once a week for several weeks on school motivation. Homework has been hell. Sometimes well over 3 hours a night keeping us up late since I work and daycare doesn’t have homework rooms anymore.

I’m tired of the brownie troop leader scheduling field trips out of town to places like an island in the lake that I wouldn’t feel comfortable sending her without me on a TUESDAY when I have to work!

I’m painfully broke from spending 3 days in intensive care and add two er visits that same week (one on a Monday and one the day I was then admitted). I cannot believe how much they can nickle and dime a person. There are so many bills from people I’ve never even seen. I swear, if they walked by my room they sent me a bill.

I have a roof leak in my bedroom.

I really need to win the lottery.

See, I told you I had nothing good to say.